love     2003/3/19     02:13AM
Hallo everyone
Firstly, wanna say thanks to all those who attended the concert at NTU. I'm quite pleased with myself.....hehehe….
I think my level of concentration was quite high.....PLUS the sound system was good, so the sound was good. I enjoyed performing that one hour.
These two weeks have been very enjoyable. Life is more routine, I sleep more than eight hours everyday and eat well everyday.
It has been really self-indulgent. I had so much time for myself, I had the chance to read my diary a few days ago.
All my teenage anger and depression. I was half amused and half surprised to find out how different I have turned out.
The 13 year-old-me would have been quite disturbed. I met my primary school teacher sometime back,
(the one I was looking for but she never came to taiwan and I never looked for her). She still looks the same....
except that she no longer ties her hair high on top of her head and she wasn't wearing canary yellow as I have so fondly remembered.
But she still had that sparkle in her eyes. I was really happy to see her. This was how the conversation go:
"Wa you are so different now ah?"
"Ya I remember I was really an awkward kid."
"No, you weren't awkward, you were really quiet, and you loved to sing"
"Quiet? No I wasn't quiet."
"Yes, you were so quiet in school."
I always thought I was the most talkative girl in the world then my teacher came and told me I was very quiet.
Maybe I only talk after class, maybe there were so many thoughts in my head I thought I was saying them aloud. Anyway,
we talked for about 20 minutes while my girl friend tapped her feet impatiently. So it ended there.
You know, you never know how you would turn out in the end. I swear I was a brooding pensive girl and
my favourite story book was chicken little telling the whole world the sky is falling down. But now my hph reads, It's a wonderful day today!
I don't understand it myself, but I must have met something wonderful. And another war is coming and then there is SARs.
Frankly I'm scared to death. And there is no conclusion to this message. Life is great now....and I hope it's great for all of you too.
Love
yz
各位好嗎:
想要先感謝一下昨天（17日）晚上所有到南洋理工大學看我演唱會的朋友說聲謝謝。我覺得我唱得很不錯哪……呵呵呵……
我想那是因為我很專心地演唱……再加上音響很棒，所以音響效果很好，我真的很沈醉在那一個小時的表演裡。
三月一日從台灣回到新加坡以後，最近這兩個星期我過得好愉快。生活起居要正常多了，每天都睡超過八個小時、吃得也很好。
我真是太放縱自己了。也因為我這麼有空，所以前幾天我翻了翻我過去寫的日記。
十幾歲的我是那麼不滿和意志消沈，我又驚又喜地發現現在自己變得那麼多，十三歲的我是那麼不安與心煩。
前一陣子我遇到我的小學老師（就是那位我在「超級星期天」找過，但她沒有來台灣而後來我沒再找她的那位），她看起來還是跟以前一樣……
只是沒有再梳著高高的髮髻，也沒有穿著我記憶深刻的淡黃色衣服。不過，她的眼神還是很銳利地閃閃發光。我真的好高興遇到她，底下是我們說的一些話：
老師：「哇∼妳現在變了好多啊？」
燕姿：「是啊，記得我從前實在是個笨小孩。」
老師：「沒有，妳才不笨哩，妳那時候好文靜，也好愛唱歌。」
燕姿：「文靜？沒哩，我一點也不文靜哩。」
老師：「是啦，妳在學校裡總是文文靜靜的。」
我一直以為自己是世上最愛講話的女生了，而我的老師居然說我那時很文靜！？或許我只在下課後講話，
也可能只是有那麼多念頭不斷在我腦海裡打轉，而我以為自己有說出來。不管怎樣，我和老師大約聊了二十分鐘，
直到我身邊的女性朋友有點不耐煩地輕輕跺腳才結束。
大家知道，你永遠無法知道自己最後會變成怎樣？我發誓我以前是個很容易胡思亂想、杞人憂天的女孩，
我以前最喜歡的故事書是「小雞跟全世界說天要塌下來」，可是現在的我卻完全不一樣！
我不清楚我是怎麼會有這樣的轉變的，可是我一定是遇到過某些驚喜美好的事物才會如此。
美國和伊拉克之間的戰爭馬上要開打了，然後最近全球各地又有重症急性呼吸症候群的流行。
老實講，我怕得要死，也不知道這篇留言要怎麼下結論。現在我過得如此美好……也希望你們也一樣過得好。
愛你們的
燕姿